"Who am I and WTF am I doing?", have been the top two questions I have asked myself repeatedly for the last 162 days.

On March 24th I worked my last flight as a flight attendant. Unknowing at the time that my 3 month leave of absence, due to the Coronavirus, would lead to the uncertain future of ever being called back to work.

The first couple months of being in isolation were the most difficult. Not only because of isolation from the world but disconnecting from a job and a life that I had been doing for 16 years. It was essentially who I was, a flight attendant. I found myself alone and lost.

Being a part of the airline industry but more specifically a crew member, was not just a job, it was a lifestyle that became part of my identity. Always on the go, encountering hundreds of people daily, spending days and even weeks at a time away from home, missing birthdays, holidays and countless life events, living out of a suitcase, traveling to beautiful and not so beautiful places, eating out every day, sleeping in a different hotel bed every night, waking up in a different city every morning and sometimes not even remembering where I was, never a lack of conversation with someone, and really never experiencing the same day twice.

Exciting but exhausting.

I was always so busy working a full time flying schedule, commuting back and forth to my base in Toronto, my days off were literally spent in recovery mode. I would average about 6 to 8 days per month at home in Montreal, this made it challenging to dedicate myself fully to my photography. Photography was always something I had done in the little spare time that I had. Taking on jobs as they came, never fully committing myself to just doing that, but always wishing I had more time to dedicate to my passion.

It took me a little while to absorb the shock of not flying or rather I should say the shock of a complete lifestyle and identity change. After a couple of months at home I began to slowly emerge from my self pity bubble and decided that I had two options...

1. Let that sh*t eat me up and do nothing with my time.

2. Put 100% of my energy into my photography.

I chose option 2.

So here I am today...I eat, breath, and sleep photography. I have been doing everything I can to basically reinvent my life and myself. Not an easy feat but I am determined to succeed. Most of the time, with the exception of the actual taking and editing of images, I have no clue what the fuck I am doing. Building website uh?! Marketing my business double uh?! Making enough money to survive (insert crying here).

I knew long ago that I needed a new website and it had to include a blog page (something I’ve always wanted to have)...and here I am. I did it!

I am still unsure as to what direction my blog will take, as I tend to have many random thoughts and opinions on things, but I sure do hope you’ll at least find it entertaining and that you’ll follow along.

Thank you to all of you that follow, support and appreciate my words and my work!

sherry xo

p.s. I am really unsure as to my future as a flight attendant but what I know for sure right now is that I am fully dedicated to the present moment in my life.